20250801 Thoughts..

God grants us more than sufficient income, but i feel broke still given one of the reason is that i have a high maintenance and unstable wife.

I can't blame things on her because we made the decisions together. You can never clap with just one hand so i must admit that i am at fault also. I give in too easily, each time is due to my soften heart that solely wants her to be happy..

I dont know if i can continue this on until i say "let's divorce.."

I can't say it....

            I can't do it....

Let's just sell the house and start over....

20250706 Back to Bible

God allowed "Church of God" members to challenge me today at KoP mall. It truly helped me realize how i was not equiped as much as i thought.

I need to do better, not for myself but for God...

Jesus please help me! 

20250105 Happy New Year

Happy New Year 2025!!!

I can't help but to think about what this year will take us physically, mentally, and spiritually. Last year, did we expect to be in PA by the following year? So much had happened and I haven't slowed down to really reflect upon it. God took us to Gateway church and enhanced our spirits to another level where He showed me what it really is like to be filled with His Joy night and day which is nothing like my spiritual state now in PA.

Work had some positive to it where it keeps me busy and time seems to fly by really fast. It is probably not where i want to be long term so it aligns with my goal.

Where will Ada and I be next new year, or the next? God please show us and Lord lead our way...

PS- Post vacation blue right now.... Japan + Toronto...