20160508 Result Comparison: TX vs PA

Moving back to TX:

Pros:

- Paying off house/Debt free within 2 years leading to a lot more savings

- No Income Tax

- Are things cheaper? 

- Food selection increases

- Direct Flight to most location/lounges

- More like-friends? 

Cons:

- Always worried about Tornado/Hail on house/car damage

- Can't truly enjoy outdoor/backyard

- Job Satisfaction will be minimal

- Potential LM Job Replacement is limited

Staying in PA:

Pros:

- More LM Job stability and Replacement

- Better chinese food

- More Roadtrips Opportunity

- Outdoor activity

Cons:

- Less friends

- Expensive house(is it manageable if more down?)

- Less variety of food nearby

- Connect flight to all international trip

20260502 Comparison/Evalution: TX vs PA

Is it just the house at this point or it is also something else?

Texas:

- Pros: House(fixed known)/Food Variety/Modern/Growth/Direct Flight/Wai's Friend/Great lifestyle/Gateway Church? 

- Cons: Weather(Tornado/Hail)/Minimal LM Opportunity/Subpar Chinese Food/driving distance?

Pennsylvania:

- Pros: Stable LM Opportunity/Weather/Easy Roadtrips/Good Chinese food/Victory Church? 

- Cons: High House Price/Complex Flights/old/Less variety in food/less parking in places/

Do I need to care about Career too much if things can be paid off? 

20260430 Peace Please..

Lord, this is truly my prayer..

Please grant me peace in deciding what needs to happen...

If i have to let go of my TX house please grant me peace.. if i have to apply to a new role please grant me peace..

Please grant me peace with Ada also..

Please grant me the wisdom needed to make these decision so i can have peace...

Lord, you are in control of all...

20260307 Can I let go?

I reached out to Jill the realtor tonight, asking if she would be interested in potentially being our selling agent.

It was an extremely hard decision, and i have no idea what to think.. i love the house, i love texas, and i love being a texan..I know, however, that it might be not an ideal place due to weather(Tornado/Hail) & LM Job Opportunity.

Thinking about it, it is probably mostly due to LM Job Opportunity.

What am i really thinking about? Why am i so attached to the house? 

20250801 Thoughts..

God grants us more than sufficient income, but i feel broke still given one of the reason is that i have a high maintenance and unstable wife.

I can't blame things on her because we made the decisions together. You can never clap with just one hand so i must admit that i am at fault also. I give in too easily, each time is due to my soften heart that solely wants her to be happy..

I dont know if i can continue this on until i say "let's divorce.."

I can't say it....

            I can't do it....

Let's just sell the house and start over....

20250706 Back to Bible

God allowed "Church of God" members to challenge me today at KoP mall. It truly helped me realize how i was not equiped as much as i thought.

I need to do better, not for myself but for God...

Jesus please help me! 

20250105 Happy New Year

Happy New Year 2025!!!

I can't help but to think about what this year will take us physically, mentally, and spiritually. Last year, did we expect to be in PA by the following year? So much had happened and I haven't slowed down to really reflect upon it. God took us to Gateway church and enhanced our spirits to another level where He showed me what it really is like to be filled with His Joy night and day which is nothing like my spiritual state now in PA.

Work had some positive to it where it keeps me busy and time seems to fly by really fast. It is probably not where i want to be long term so it aligns with my goal.

Where will Ada and I be next new year, or the next? God please show us and Lord lead our way...

PS- Post vacation blue right now.... Japan + Toronto...

20241006 Control..

I am extremely angry but i need to control myself...

20240915 I wonder...

Its been a little over a month since we have moved to PA... still have a piece of texas in my heart, and of course i love it.

I wonder how's our house doing? is everything still ok over there? It feels so distanced as we dont have camera set up and I cant see what is going on...

Work has been tough in the past 2 weeks, a lot of things that i need to figure out how to "own it" and just sucking it up as I cant wait for someone to hold my hand. That feeling of "not wanting" is there but i must rely on God. God had gotten me thru all prior challenges hence He will continue to strengthen me and guide me thru it! 

May my Lord Jesus Christ help me to embrace my current season...

"He's faithful through generations, so why would He fail now?! "

Firm Foundation(He Won't)

20240902 Missing Texas

I miss Texas....