One of the hardest thing for husband

One of the hardest thing in marriage is hurting spouse's feeling.
Either you are on the right or wrong side,  either you have a good solid point or not,  either you are yelling out of caring or anger..either way,  we have all lost on our relationships.
Guys should always be gentle to ladies,  husband should always love and protect our wives but unforunately we are all just human. Seeing our wives cry or being hurt deeply inside are one of the hardest thing we have to face. Our heart gets soften everytime it happens and we can't help but to apologize since we, afterall, love our wives and cherish the relationship.

Forgiving 1/77

Pngg!!
Your attitude disgusts me,  if i talk to you in the same tone that you use on me then our marriage would not last.

You wouldn't dare using this tone on others...please remember that if i do not pick a fucking fight with you it is not because you are perfect.. it is only because i cherish our relationship and i won't even consider hurting someone i love

Spiritual Realization

" 聖經告訴我們，神對我們的要求是嚴格的，不可以隨便的。以為大體上過得去，沒有犯什麼大罪就可以了，那是完全錯的。將來極大的分別就在這裡，就在於誰認真努力追求，謹守主道；誰對主疏遠，對主的道輕忽；誰攻克己身，順服聖靈；誰隨從肉體，求己喜悅；誰全心為主工作；誰有私心混雜在內。" -每日靈修 (20171228)

This is my biggest hit today.  I have been wandering away from God for quite some time now. Although away and fell to bottom the hill, I am glad that the Holy Spirit allows me to realize that I am at the bottom. At the same time it is also insulting to God that I am not willing to pick myself up even today when God had given me this thought since day 1.
I have been refusing to serve and refusing to continuely build relationship with Jesus Christ. I have been dwelling in sins and live/think/talk/feel like a person whom does not know God. The farther I am,  the easier I lose my temper,  the more frustrations and hatred are in me, and the more isolation I want to be in.
It feels almost exhausting to put efforts into rebuilding relationships with my Lord, devotions/servings...are extremely tiring and simply just 'thinking' about serving makes me scared.

2018 is coming... May The Lord pick me up and grant me willingness to rely back on Him.