20201129 Emotional Driven

Being driven by emotional sucks..

Sometimes you feel like you don't want to do anything

Sometimes you are just tired of doing anything

Sometimes you are just sad to do anything

Sometimes you are scared to do something

Whatever it is, ended up nothing had been accomplished

No matter how strong i look outside and to other people, this is the only place i can vent about things and be "weak"

When will June arrive? I need it to come soon, but i am sure God wants me to learn from this. If He allows it to happen, I am sure He has a way for me.

Love you,  Jesus! 

20201116 Everyday is a brand new day

Everyday is a brand new day,  and everyday is a brand new headache... yes.. it's bizarre! Feels like a failure!

Meanwhile, PA city has another lockdown but its a lighter version

20201105 Nothing is certain but..

You can never be too certain on things but i have come to a conclusion that i will not be working under my current rotation manager after June 2021, and I really hope that it comes faster. These type of unexpected requests,  unknown expectation, lack of directions created a high stress environment for me and i am losing life/health for it. Since i am no longer moving to california i really dont need to be aggressive anymore and really just do what i enjoy doing.

But nothing is certain... mindset might change, keep our eyes open and never say never...