hurts me so bad to see you sad... just want to hug you..

but i hate seeing your angry/inch face!

empty..tired?

just feeling so empty.. tired from work? not enough sleep? why do i feel like this?

You can do it..

Baby, sometimes i just cant wait to see your face in the future when you are finally done with everything and look back at all the excellent/hard work you have put in with God's grace... i cant wait to say "I told you baby that you can do it!!" Hope that you always remember, that nothing is impossible in God and rely on our mighty Lord.

Thinking of u..

喺過去嘅10年時間裏面, 你已經為咗你身邊所愛嘅人毫無保留嘅去犧牲奉獻咗好多喇, 無怨言嘅你到今時今日仍保持住沈默咁承受咗好多困難,壓力同唔公平嘅後果但亦願意用感恩嘅心去面對宜一切. 我明白你身體心靈其實已經好攰, 仲每日都死撐裝演成一個堅強嘅樣,其實你已經真係付出咗太多亦足夠啦…
如神容許, 就請懇求你比我好好嘅照顧你以後嘅日子, 等你可以唔需要再咁辛苦, 咁大壓力嘅一個人面對所有野…等你能夠親身經歷舒適同安全嘅日子…可以完完全全好安心好放心咁依靠一個你愛亦好愛你同信得過嘅男人

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My heart is packed with bitterness, mostly towards to people i used to hang out with.. ever since i've found out that they've been criticizing me in the back.

I know i have to reflect on things....  but what is with me? i am really not articulate at all..

what do i really want from them?
i want them to stop criticizing people since i don't judge anyone
i want their blessings
i want them to stop being so fake and act like they care when they don't
care for them routinely instead of only when things happen... FUCK YOU

Chinese...

Feelings i have today.... i feel that being in the church community is real annoying... maybe only specifically towards "chinese" church community... they talk so much behind you its not even funny

Church is a house of sinners... and chinese are just known to gossips...

I know all that, now tell me something i dunno